I married when I wanted!

I grew up with the traditional root

Daughter of the family, ordered to marry

My dreams and ambitions disputed the mentality

I’d never thought of marrying someone so early

“Namanlageko kura ta ma gardai gardenia jasle je bhaney pani feri aile ma yo garney hanamachi tyo malai garihalnuparney hunch”

Time flipped my choice to marry when I met this man

A man with merry and a sparkle in every stand

My eyes shone along with this 60-year Oldman

Considering my own age of 45,

3 sons older than me, My love greater than all

(smiling)

We agreed on the sindur together

My health restricted me from having my own loves

Yet, my pillar “him” held my hands

Like the bond of knitting,

My beloved companion

He had a heart better than a gem

fulfilled all my wants

We had this policy of “our money” and not “his money”

Not like others, I did not need to ask him for money

I used to take it out on my own as per his wish

No other man does it!

“Testo hasirahaney manchey”. He was very healthy

A sudden kidney infection led him further

Darkness never enlightened dealing his death

Despite having 9 members, my soul sensed empty

“Afno koi cha jasto lagena”

Daytime evaporated my pain to an extent

But the vanished sun in the night,

Froze the gloom throughout

Nights were hard to pass!

Education was never in the colors

Yet, directed to the copies

A feeling of ignorance that had

“How stupid was I? I really should have studied”

Beloved grandchildren collected the patience

Sensed me with “Nepali Akshyar”

His son and daughter-in-law “Dekhisakdeina thye”

Son was quite better and affectionate

Daughter in laws “Baar Hanako jasto garthye”

Created a gap in the family

Even when he was alive

My family did not exactly send me

What happened was, we had this conversation about an old age home

And I asked them if I should go their answer was neither no nor yes

But actions speak louder than words

The loose bond with the family made me clear about their answer which made this decision for me

I also had this moment of anxiety procrastinating if I was right enough to make this big decision for me

Once, my misty stories were exposed in the media

Caught my daughter-in-law’s eyes as a fog

The following day, she tossed on me with wide brown eyes

My scare muted me the moment,

But the regret for not voicing out triggered me the entire moon

Picked up the phone, dialed the tone

I knitted all the realities and roared my feels

Life taught me the weakness of a small voice

Delicate failed and powerful flied

Sensitive contempt and influence conquered

Live visualization in the old age home,

How fit ones are respected and sick ones are dominated

How “still young” are beating and “all old” are crawling

I grew up with the traditional root

Daughter of the family, ordered to marry

My dreams and ambitions disputed the mentality

I’d never thought of marrying someone so early

“Namanlageko kura ta ma gardai gardenia jasle je bhaney pani feri aile ma yo garney bhanepachi tyo malai garihalnuparney huncha”

Time flipped my choice to marry when I met this man

A man with merry and a sparkle in every stand

My eyes shone along with this 60-year Oldman

Considering my own age of 45,

3 sons older than me, My love greater than all

(smiling)

We agreed on the sindur together

My health restricted me from having my own loves

Yet, my pillar “him” held my hands

Like the bond of knitting,

My beloved companion

He had a heart better than a gem

fulfilled all my wants

We had this policy of “our money” and not “his money”

Not like others, I did not need to ask him for money

I used to take it out on my own as per his wish

No other man does it!

“Testo hasirahaney manchey”. He was very healthy

A sudden kidney infection led him further

Darkness never enlightened dealing his death

Despite having 9 members, my soul sensed empty

“Afno koi cha jasto lagena”

Daytime evaporated my pain to an extent

But the vanished sun in the night,

Froze the gloom throughout

Nights were hard to pass!

Education was never in the colors

Yet, directed to the copies

A feeling of ignorance that had

“How stupid was I? I really should have studied”

Beloved grandchildren collected the patience

Sensed me with “Nepali Akshyar”

His son and daughter-in-law “Dekhisakdeina thye”

Son was quite better and affectionate

Daughter in laws “Baar Hanako jasto garthye”

Created a gap in the family

Even when he was alive

My family did not exactly send me

What happened was, we had this conversation about an old age home

And I asked them if I should go their answer was neither no nor yes

But actions speak louder than words

The loose bond with the family made me clear about their answer which made this decision for me

I also had this moment of anxiety procrastinating if I was right enough to make this big decision for me

Once, my misty stories were exposed in the media

Caught my daughter-in-law’s eyes as a fog

The following day, she tossed on me with wide brown eyes

My scare muted me the moment,

But the regret for not voicing out triggered me the entire moon

Picked up the phone, dialed the tone

I knitted all the realities and roared my feels

Life taught me the weakness of a small voice

Delicate failed and powerful flied

Sensitive contempt and influence conquered

Live visualization in the old age home,

How fit ones are respected and sick ones are dominated

How “still young” are beating and “all old” are crawling